Feeling the pain

I know that i am never perfect for you.. Yes I have hearing problems but u don't have to tell your siblings that "she's deft geh!" and shout at me "you fucking deft ahhh?" today because your dad and bro hit your ears you show temper to me I'm sorry I never do anything wrong I don't deserve to get scolding for no reason.. Maybe I am just not good enough.. Why u never think before that when last time I wait for you so long I never scold you like that and why I get for no reason.. Maybe I owe you this my previous life.. Ask Vanessa in the car I was crying thinking why u must scold me.. I came back hug mummy and cry again.. I really can't take it.. I had enough of being soft to you.. I get nothing but scolding.. I have parents too you know.. I try my best get iPhone for your brother because I want your family to accept me and I try my best to get it and I don't mind paying first.. What I get you calling me deft? ;( nvm la I'm never the best.. Sorry I'm broke.. Seriously sorry..