I've made a decision :)

I finally made up my mind :) I'm so happy that everything is cleared so I don't have to worry so much.. I have decided ^^ happy happy :) lalalalalalalalala

I am messed up

Yesterday I called you cause I really miss you.. But do u know after that I was chatting with a guy best friend until almost 4 in the morning and he actually told me he likes me.. I'm not in between 3 guys you, Kai Sheng and that guy.. I can't make a decision.. I really wished we never broke up so there won't be other guys coming for me.. :/ it's so hard.. Yes no matter what I'll never forget you.. But I'm I gonna be selfish to hurt the other 2? I'm I suppose to hurt guys again? I really don't wanna hurt anyone anymore.. Is there anyway that all 3 guys will be happy? Yesterday I decided to call u because I really want u to know I miss you even I look really strong but suddenly through all my sad moments in life there is this 2 guy come try safe me.. And teman me until I can sleep.. Not all guy is willing to stay up 4am to talk to me.. Even u also wanna sleep.. I just know that if I hurt any of you 3 guys I'll regret.. Because 3 boys also really love me and I dont know how anymore!!! Sorry.. Goodluck in your exam :) don't think so much.. After exam only talk about love la :p all the best!!

11:31

I called u and I told you I haven't give up on you yet.. But I know u already did so I LOW YEE LAN, promise to forget you for the rest of my life.. You no longer care so why should I? I'm giving this guy a chance since you no longer love me!! Fine.. All my tears wasted and all my hardwork I put in is burned.. :) thanks for waking me up telling me you've give up on me.. There's is no point for me loving you anymore.. This guy I'll accept him and I'll promise to be happy with him.. And you!!! I hope one day you'll regret giving up on me.. :) thanks for fake loving me all this while! And thanks for lying saying you'll wait for me no matter what!!! Thanks Mr. Sim Ken John! Bye !

I'm scared

I really don't know why I have this type of feeling.. I am scared.. Why am I scared? :( you know I've seen your conversation with her and I saw u liking all her instagram pictures.. I'm sure you still love her.. I guess it's time for me to stop checking your stuff because when I check I get hurt.. Everytime it disappoints me.. So I promise myself not to look at it anymore.. You wanna like who's picture its non of my business.. Even if you both get together one day I only can just smile like nothing's wrong.. I gotta stay strong! I have to!! Stay strong Yee Lan stay strong!!! :'(

:)

Thank you for such nice wishes but I am sure you're not happy.. I'm sorry ahh!! But if one day we are meant to be we will be in the future.. I'll never forget the joy you bring to my life and all the laughter.. Until now all your presents I still keep properly and think of you :) even as memories it's sweet so I don't think I should throw it.. Okay! Let's be friends!! ^_^ you too can text me & call me.. Like that is better than being enemies right? :p haha you stay strong! Be honest with me okay? :p

:)

To be honest i can't forget you.. Seriously you're always on my mind I keep thinking of you.. In school I can't laugh like last time be hyper like last time the hyper me is gone.. Totally gone okay? I just don't know what to say I can't be selfish anymore.. Yes to be honest he isn't as good as you but why don't give him a chance? Maybe he will change for me like how you did.. Last time he treat gf all like shit but now he treat me okay :) so far still okay.. To be honest I miss you and all those memories we have built together :) but nvm la we can both stay strong and be friends right? :) can we?

Oh well

You don't lie that you're bored and all that Kay? The way you talk to her proves everything.. I am stupid enough to listen to your lies too!! No matter what we both will move on because there is no more hope between us.. I just realize you are the old you.. Serious and I'm not joking I feel it okay? And plus! I will not stop him from badminton because that is his career and I will always support him.. And to tell you, even how bad he treat me I'll also keep quite because I don't want a guy to treat me good with a fake heart! I don't wanna be with playboys anymore.. I wanna have a simple life with someone that loves me.. Just that simple thing will do.. Today I went X-ray usually I have you to comfort me not to get scared. But I'm okay now.. I see doctor I face everything myself.. I'm a stronger girl and also more matured to accept things that are hard to be accepted.. Thanks for hurting me :) u made me this strong today :p

Sorry

Sorry that I've hurt you too much.. Yes I met this guy he treat me good but can never compare to you.. But honestly I read your conversation with Annabelle :) so I guess I know what I'm doing :) choosing him over you is a good choice I've made because no matter what I know that the only girl in your heart is her :) I knew it I really knew it even we were together.. Haha I was stupid enough to believe you love me.. But I'm over it la.. I'm tired of loving a guy which plays my heart like a toy :) you ahh learn to love your new gf take care of her dont be so playboy anymore okay? You also must take care :p

My feelings towards you!

Do u know right now I really hate you? Do u know what you've done? Do you know how much pain u put me in? Yesterday was your birthday I saw you talk about u found someone new and u kissed her and some stuff like that.. Yes until now I still read your blog and read your tweets but after reading just make me feel you're just the same old freaking playboy which I hate!! Yesterday I cry because of you! Lucky the guy that likes me comforted me and calm me down.. Even he likes me he still can tolerate me talking about you! Hurt me so much.. Your tweets and all.. Talking back to all your ex and old crushes.. Are u like born to be a pain in the ass or what? Please la if you don't love me anymore just stop all those love stuff writing shit.. Okay?! I don't want to continue to cry.. You move on I move on :) simple as that.. Don't have to say things to hurt me.. No matter what you'll always be part of my memories :) and also take care this might be abit rude but I'm sorry I don't want to feel like this anymore.. Please stop okay? ^^ thanks