Its been long seen I last blogged

Well in a few days a lot of things had happen and also I hurt the guy I love most and just because of a useless girl like me, he actually poked himself with a knife ? How am I so stupid to leave a guy that loves me so damn fucking much? And also now we appreciate each other way better and also learn how to treat each other more lovingly.. He changed a lot for me his attitude the way he talk and everything.. I know he change because he don't wanna lose me and if he forever treat me so good I will never ever leave him.. He say day by day he will treat me better and we shall see about that.. All I know is I feel very sad deep down that I hurt him but at the same time I have to stay strong because I need to continue to love him I don't want him to get hurt.. If anything happen to me he also will get sad so I have to stay strong too :) I love you so much Fei Zai ❤❤❤