Are we really over?

Today you treat me really cold.. But I still could tolerate it.. But one time after another you keep finding a way to just be single.. Are we really over? Can you tell me? It doesn't matter anymore.. I called you, you ended it anyway.. Loving me was just a game to you.. Take care la.. Love me love me ? Everyday say but not once i was with the heart.. Ish let me cry la.. Bye

I am so strong

I am a strong girl like I said before :) even so little thing you can't accept imagine all those words you have used to call me before and I could just tolerate :) you're just too selfish thinking of your feeling.. Wanna tell you now why I'm not happy :) you tell me the story why u don't want let me keep your money :) okay fine since you so don't trust me then want me for what? Better just don't need me :) to have your better half because you trust them with everything.. Since you don't is it because I'm not your better half ? Is it? If it is tell me la.. What also don't trust me.. If I don't trust you, you also not happy la.. Keep think of yourself never think before of me :'(

:)

I knew you would end my call because you and all the other guys out there is just the same :) treating me better was crap :) say to make me feel better :) what the hell? Say can't do, nvm I'm use to it anyway... Since you end my call again and again :) I can't tolerate it anymore.. Too bad I say try end again then BU and ya you did :) hahaha its not me that wanna BU is you that wanna BU that's why you end the call :) thanks

Sorry

I really very hurt deep down :) I just know that this relationship won't last to the future because we are already struggling and it's only 10 months plus.. Don't you think we are in pain? You hurt more by promising me all those things you can't do.. You say I hurt you, then u no hurt me? Promises is always broken in your hands.. You refuse to make my dream come true.. I really not happy but it's okay la since I hurt to you is normal I'll rather stay hurt :) my life is always sadness no happiness :) I know that and it's fine with me.. No one will love me so much and will just love me and not hurt me :( I know my life is hard as rock :) and plus even I have sickness all that no one cares as long as I make people happy and sadness keep coming to me :) hubby hope u understand but I'm sure you wont.. Haha use to it d la.. Let me continue to be sad la cause you happy can d :) thanks for everything :)

No one understands me!

I thought you will understand me when others don't.. The person I love most tend to not understand me as well.. Now I have no one :( all alone.. No one I can talk to no one I can depend on.. Why you don't understand me?!! Why?? Just because I said my friends are quite important you're making a big fuss about it? I'm so disappointed in myself :) no one understands me :) I'm so useless and I know it.. Dont have to rub it in my face ! Say treat me better and all those crap was just a piece of crap.. Because u don't know the real way to treat me right.. I say hope you understand and still want to show your attitude to me? Sorry I cant tolerate that.. I'm sorry you just don't understand me find a way to understand me la please!! Thanks bye

Its been long seen I last blogged

Well in a few days a lot of things had happen and also I hurt the guy I love most and just because of a useless girl like me, he actually poked himself with a knife ? How am I so stupid to leave a guy that loves me so damn fucking much? And also now we appreciate each other way better and also learn how to treat each other more lovingly.. He changed a lot for me his attitude the way he talk and everything.. I know he change because he don't wanna lose me and if he forever treat me so good I will never ever leave him.. He say day by day he will treat me better and we shall see about that.. All I know is I feel very sad deep down that I hurt him but at the same time I have to stay strong because I need to continue to love him I don't want him to get hurt.. If anything happen to me he also will get sad so I have to stay strong too :) I love you so much Fei Zai ❤❤❤