Recently

Recently we became better improving until just now.. I really want him to understand me :) because I'm sure that I will never fail to fall in love everyday with him.. Hubby I want u to be more understanding.. Because if you can I sure happy die :) I just hope hubby you will sayang me forever ya ? Ai Si Ni

Yesterday

Feeling very unhappy.. Yesterday you left me hanging and also didn't say goodnight just because you fell asleep ? Haih got think of me ? Make me feel guilty but actually just small thing and also wanna fight :( whatever la so tired of fighting and also morning you did send me message but at the end I sad.. Nvm la yesterday make me cry till 4 something in the morning and never even say sorry ahh make u so worried and all that.. But he never say anything.. Nvm la I love him so I tahan bah.. I love you.. Muakxxxxx! Hope that one day he will change for me.. And also will don't be so hot tempered.. I really hope that the day will come.. Okay la don't wanna say anymore have to stop crying... Bye

13th march

Well I'm having a holiday break and yes trying to relax myself from all the stress recently.. I will never forget that on this day midnight, me and him fight like crazy and he finally said that word "break up" and he said he was serious about it.. And at that moment my heart broke and tears dripped one after another it hurts so so so much.. So I actually decided to leave this world because I can't stand no more pain and all this hurtfulness.. So at the end he begged me not to leave him and give give him another chance.. He said please and he said he will appreciate me.. So now he say he is doing art do I have some time to blog.. And I'm hoping this time he will keep his words.. Because I don't wanna get hurt like last time.. Sorry hubby I really want you to change to appreciate me.. If you are not going to appreciate me next time you will regret.. But i love you anyway..

Thursday :)

These few days I not really very happy lo honestly.. Okay okay only.. And also on tuesday I heard people say you talk to Melissa in school but you didn't tell me, got respect mah? Then give u want chance to tell the truth you never, you still can swear.. I was so disappointed that I ignored his whatsapp :( really really sad.. Today ask him come visit me since his school so I asked him come see me eat and go but he don't want.. For me as long as can see him I okay already but he must have some horny thing happen only he happy want.. Please la hubby love me can mah? I now at sick bay I really sick d, never tell u don't want u worry.. Wanna rest awhile :)

10 Months Texting Anniversary

Yes it's true I'm very sad very angry because you never text me.. I was super angry that I could just ignore you.. But why you go cut yourself why ?! No matter what somehow I will forgive you just the matter of time.. You do stupid things will just make me feel useless.. Because you hurt yourself for me shows I'm a useless girlfriend or wife.. :( I just feel like going there hugging you help you clean your wound I just feel so useless other then crying I can't do anything.. Just wanna say we already pass 10 months together we have long long way to go.. If you hurt yourself then who take care of me ? You promise to take care of me until I old must do it okay ?! I love you so so so so much hubby!!! Talk to you later okay ? And once again HAPPY 10 MONTHS TEXTING ANNIVERSARY! Muakcxxxxxx!! ❤

A Day With You :)

Today I really very happy because we finally get to spend some time together.. I know I very stupid hehehe and in the car when I sleep on you I feel very safe very nice :) and u keep sayang my head and hug me kiss my forehead at that time I feel like I'm the luckiest girl :) I wish everyday also you can be by my side hugging me protecting me.. We ate lok lok together I very happy :) feel like we have our own world somehow :p thank you did making my day so wonderful and amazing.. I really miss you like crazy.. Just now you go I never cry but when turn back I straight cry :'( maybe you won't cry but I really miss u.. We very long time never try so happy already but I know we can make this to the future.. I love you so so so much!! Goodnight hubby sweet dreams ya? Muakxxxxxxxxx!! ❤❤❤❤❤

Unhappy

I don't understand my life I don't understand it at all.. I find it so hard to breath because I'm too broken heart.. I am so sad I really am.. I don't know what to say anymore.. My heart l
Already dead it hurts.. Too sad too disappointed.. Don't know what to do anymore.. I just know as long as he one day at that school I will very unhappy.. Everything change and it hurts.. I have to reaccept everything again.. I can't take it.. It's too much for me :( I'm not a strong girl.. I am a weak one.. Why nobody understand me ?

These few days

These few days we argue a lot.. On the 29th of February we fight and it's on leap year thinking it would be special but it didn't :( nvm then I thought 1st of March can be a good day at the end we fight again.. I'm so tired of fighting and I don't like it.. And also it's his official first day at school today I very not happy because I have a feeling that in that school he very happy next time will have a lot of friends and also girls that will talk to him.. I have to click restart to accept the fact again i can't estimate how long I will be unhappy but I'll learn to accept eventually.. I really not happy that he is in that school, make me worry make me sad make me cry :( haih last time I cry one month plus and this time don't know how long.. Really don't like being sad like that but as long as he happy can already la.. I love you dear.. Hope one day you'll understand my love for you but I don't think you will.. Haih but nvm I'll be okay