The saddest night

Today can consider a very bad bad day for me.. I'm really unhappy and all those thing that made me sad.. And also the worse thing is John sad slapped him.. John wanna change back to KL school but in one condition break up with me.. I can't take that!! It's so stupid.. Yes! Even though it is fake but still it hurts my feelings.. I don't know how to express my feelings right now but I'm so hurt and so scared.. :'( I cried too much today I'm so afraid so scared.. The happy me have to come back!! Please I wanna be happy I don't wanna cry in school tomorrow.. How i wish he knows how I feel.. How I wish hubby can hug me and surprise me in school but that will never happen.. I really afraid to sleep what if the next day he don't want me anymore? I don't wanna over think maybe I should just sleep.. Goodnight