Soon 6 Months ♥

Miss spending time with my Hubby :'(

3 Days left to me and Ken John's 6 moths together.. :) I am so happy.. But recently a lot of things happen.. I cant go out and see him.. mummy don let.. As long as many things happened.. I just cant take it anymore.. I fine that living is so hard.. But I promise myself that i wont give up on this love.. I will keep holding tight.. Hubby is back but cant date him.. We skype everyday except 1 day.. Finally get to see his face.. he remembered about a promise he made.. He promise to spend at least 1 hour with me at night and he keeps to his promise.. I really miss him.. when i see couples holding hand everywhere I feel the pain, I cant go out with him.. Actually i am really sad but no one knows.. But I'll hold on tight.. 6 months almost near.. I know I can make it.. I hope that next year situations will get better.. I hope that i can do what i like.. I wont leave him unless he leaves me.. Everyday I wipe my tears away... I want him to be by my side holding my hand never letting go.. He is all i want and all i need.. I will feel better I guess.. Nobody knows how much i miss him.. its killing me inside.. I'll wait forever :)

Till Here ♥♥♥

Me & Him

Actually we went through a lot.. I just don want this love to end.. I don want his love for me gets bored.. I want him to love me more and more and not lesser.. :( I am pretty sure I will love him forever I already made my choice.. I love him so much.. I bought him an ipod hopefully he likes it and appreciate what I done for him.. I just cant lose him that's all.. May god bless us to last forever because I really need him :) I Love My Hubby

Till Here ♥

:) It's been almost a week

Miss Holding Hands With Him ♥

Its been awhile now :) Me and him still staying strong and another 2 more days its officially our 4th Month together.. I really love him so much!! we've not argued for almost a month now and i am feeling great.. A lot of things happen recently in my life and i don know how to go through it but LUCKILY i have him to support me every step i take.. He is always there to give me support, love and care.. I am still standing strong here because of him :) Nothing else really matters now on HUBBY matters.. He told me the sweetest thing that I've ever heard in my life.. He told me he is gonna learn to make me a pair of gloves and i burst into tears because he loves me more than i've aspected.. :) And i love him lots too.. I just feel so happy that i have him.. 



Till Here ♥♥♥

Staying Happy Together ♥

See The Laughter We Share Together ♥

I want us to be together FOREVER ♥

Today he told me something that made me a little bit sad.. He said that a girl gave him drinks.. firstly morning she gave him Ribena and lunch gave him milk and honey.. :( Why that girl treat him so good? I don want to lose him.. I was sad but at the end I know he love me more.. I know he wont fall for her.. Something really touched my heart.. His school celebrated Mooncake Festival and countdown to 1 Malaysia day.. but he didn't join them and he wait for me until i finish tuition but he fell asleep.. hehehe >.< he woke up around 12 and called me and chat with me.. :) I felt so love.. After saying goodnight, sweetdreams and sleep tight we ended the call with a word "I Love You".. After that around 1 he called me again remind me to go to bed.. He really love me.. I feel so happy.. I miss the laughter that we share together, the sweet memories and all those tears.. I hope one day we really can be together and he finally can take me and meet his parents.. I already choose him to be my husband.. only he can make my dreams come true.. I am so happy that i have him now.. Only he can make me happy and enjoy life.. I really love this guy a lot.. May god bless us ♥


Till Here :) ♥♥♥

Bad Day! :(

I Love Him ♥

Today I really had a bad day in school.. Really very sad really feel depressed but so what?? Life must go on... We started with a happy conversation but end up sad.. Haizzzzz.. but its okay i understand how he feels.. I know he is depressed but me too.. I just wish to stay happy with him forever that's all i am asking for.. He should understand me more and think of my feelings.. I really want him to give and take.. I can't lose him.. I can sacrifice anything for him.. Hubby if u are reading this I want to tell u I really love you and need you.. I am going through a lot of stuffs hope you can go through it with me.. Stay strong with me okay..

Till Here ♥♥♥

Boring Sunday!

Miss Kissing My Little Vampire ♥

Today was a quite boring day as usual :) But than I realized something I miss him so much.. He just went back to school for a week but I feel like its been a month or more.. Time pass so slowly without him by my side.. :( I was thinking of changing school but my hubby don let me change to his school.. Well i understand he is just concern about my feelings.. He really cares for me.. I believe he will be loyal to me and will continue to fight for this love.. Maybe his family can go against us being together but I know that Me & Him can stay strong together.. Hubby I Love You! maybe we are going to face a lot of different things together.. the bitter and the sweet but I am hoping in god hands we are meant for each other.. Today I realize I need him more than anything else.. :( I miss him.. I wanna see him so badly..


Till here ♥♥♥

Saturday 10/9/2011

I Miss Being In His Arms ♥

My Husband ♥

I Will Be Me No Matter What ♥

Well today was a good day for me.. :) It was relaxing.. I went for facial and came home.. watched tv and sleep for awhile.. Talked to my hubby and stuff.. Today his school celebrated Hari Raya and he went for that celebration while waiting for him he text me with his friends phone and it was so touching.. These are the messages :

1 : Honey sorry didn't bring my phone down but you just see you don need to reply me honey I just want to tell you that I love you a lot and later I find you ya? Miss you a lot muakzxx!!

2 : Honey I really very sad!! When I eat ice-cream i wanted to cry edi because i miss the time we eat ice-cream i feel like eating with you again my beloved wife! Honey when you see this don reply ya just to say i really will appreciate you and love you a lot honey i need you by my side!

This messages really touched my heart.. i cried so much.. I really miss him.. We built too much sweet memories that couldn't be erased.. We will keep building 'em.. another text when he gets back

"Honey I feel so touch!! I feel that when i with you i feel so happy! I feel like hugging you! Can? I need you to hug me and say I love you! I willing to sacrifice everything for you but Please just love me I enough edi!" 

I really feel like running all the way there to give him a kiss.. The feelings i have no one will ever understand.. My love for him is way too deep... I Love My Hubby Lots.. Forever will ..

Till Here ♥♥♥

Great Day ♥

My Dearest Husband ♥

Today I feel so much better because I took revenge by slapping Danny 4 times in the face and he cried :) So yeah!!! But i don know what trouble i am going to get into but i will be fine :)

Today I had really good conversation with my hubby! He was sweet and soft and he talked :) haha but somehow the call ended and i tried calling it doesn't work.. and even if it gets through he did not answer.. I am so worried that I dont know how to fall asleep now.. :'( I easily over-think.. I know I am a weak girl and i just don like it when he leaves me hanging and no goodnight wishes tonight , I feel so sad and depressed.. But I'll think positive and hope he will find me in the morning.. If he didn't I will seriously get very sad and will do stupid stuff.. May god bless me and him to be together forever ♥


Till Here♥♥♥

8/9/2011

                                                                                        My Superman!! ♥                                                                                                                 

DICKHEAD

Today can consider an unpleasant day for me is because Danny hit my boobs!!!! >:( Story goes like this :
He said to rics her pussy got locked by her mum and say she don have a pussy and also said I have big breast and stuff like that.. I felt so insulted so Rica couldn't take it so did I.. We kept on arguing and arguing.. Its so stupid... I said his dick is smaller than a baby one and he said no his dick is huge.. I say take off your pants and prove la.. and i said his dick have acne... BITCH!!! i really cant take this idiot anymore.. So damn annoying.. During lunch I told hubby and stuff like that Hubby got angry and call Jovin all help.. :) He's My MAN!!! But one sad thing he is not around :(
I told mummy when I get home and she keep on saying don be revengeful but you know what I am a girl and let simply people touch? I AM NOT THAT CHEAP!!!! I kept on crying and my mum wouldn't understand my feeling.. I will get my revenge tomorrow because I cant stand that idiot no more.. :) Spoiler of the day!

Tomorrow He Will Gain The Painfulness.. ASSHOLE!!! o0o

A Gift From God ♥

Bought by Mummy ♥

You can see from above to me Love Never Fails.. I mean i am hoping that it wont fail :) I am going to put hopes on him now its because I know somehow god sent him to me.. All I need from him is caring, loving, sharing, protective, loyal, honest and stuffs like that... Making me happy is just so easy :) I just want to understand more about him so that I can keep this relationship strong and steady.. Everyone is probably trying to tear us apart and i am hoping he would hold on tight and fight for this love.. Today he teman me a little extra because i really miss him :'( why he have to go? But its okay his heart is always close to mine ♥


Till here ♥

I'm not perfect

I am a girl who is living in an ordinary teenage life :) I overestimate.. I underestimate.. I over think.. I over do everything.. I mess things up.. My hair always doesn't go into shape.. Sickness :( Many more other things.. I agree that I am not a perfect girl and I also believe in this world no one is 100% perfect.. but one thing i am sure I have a good heart.. not to say I am praising myself but its true.. i will always be myself no matter what.. but thank god Ken John (my hubby) can accept all the sickness I have and willing to go through all my ups and downs together.. I cant live without him now..


Lets end here It's getting late.. :) Nite  

3rd Month Anniversary Celebration!

the letter i wrote to him ♥

3rd Month :) so happy ♥

I was crying cause we together read the letter I wrote ♥

Honey ♥ Hubby = FOREVER

My Man carrying me :) so sweet ♥

Walking Home Together ♥

Making A Wish Together ♥

Blowing it Together hoping we last forever ♥

Well on the 27/08/2011 we celebrated our 3rd Month Anniversary together.. On this same day it was Jovin and Sky's birthday celebration at Times Square.. So I went to Time Square and wait for him.. At first we was suppose to meet at 3pm but ending up he arrived at 7pm.. Firstly his dad picked him up about 4 something from school.. He had to go home first and had to prepare.. On the way the traffic was heavy.. At the end his dad was rushing for time so his dad dropped him at Pavilion and he had to find his way.. He actually bought me a cake and a pillow and ran from Pavilion to Times Square.. That is how much he loved me.. Even thou waiting for him for 4 hours was worth it when I see him running.. I arrived and I was all alone so Durka was there to accompany me while the rest was watching a show.. Bianca came about 15 minutes later and accompany me as well.. :) I sat at starbucks about 2 hours plus waiting for me hubby to arrive.. We couldn't even wish the 2 birthday boys and we straight have to leave because my house hall was having another 21st birthday celebration.. Her name is Alvinia, Aunty Bennedette daughter :) So we ate and stuff was kinda moody cause I wanted him to pujuk me :) hehe >.< At the end we took pictures together and its a perfect memory of us.. before our anniversary it means on the 26 we had a big fight but luckily everything was fine and he still came and see me..

His Farewell :
He came over we spend some time together watching shows and cuddling up.. :) Keep looking into his eyes.. and when the taxi arrived I wanted to hold him so tight and not let go.. I kept bursting out into tears and hug him.. And at the end still have to say "Goodbye" with a kiss and a warm hug.. He gave me a shirt and I left it in the car.. Once he got into the taxi and left I walked to the car to get that shirt.. I squad down and started to cry so badly :'( its really hard to say goodbye.. he also cried in the taxi.. I kept on smelling his shirt and now every night I'll hug it to bed..

Our Love Story Is Way More Than This.. ♥♥♥ 

5/5/2011

Bianca & Pooi

Annabelle & Me :(

He belong to me ♥

Today Bianca warned me by telling me something that hurt me " Yee Lan you better be careful cause what your mum said its true, Ken John is more loyal to Annabelle than you ".. I looked sad and answered her " Well I am just gonna have faith and trust in him because I love him"... And its true from today I will trust him more.. He is the one I love most and I really need him.. Everyone can dont believe him but I will.. :) I miss the times when he was still in Sri Garden.. his laughter that I miss most.. I know that I am selfish, I want him to be all mine.. I love to talk to him on the phone is because I feel like he is close to me.. I keep smelling his shirt that he gave me that day... I will tell the farewell  and our Anniversary celebration in the next post...